You know… life can get real
crazy at times. I’ve had an interesting
few weeks – part of the human experience I suppose! However, I’m hoping to impart to you today a
bit of hope and a bit of inspiration amongst any challenges you may be experiencing. I believe we have so much to gain from the times
that seem most challenging. We often forget
our greatness and these difficult times present the perfect opportunity for us to
remember.
I like to think that we made an agreement with
God or the Universe before coming to this earth. In our agreement, we would have the
opportunity to have a human
experience – and with it comes an amazing instrument, a body. But before signing on the dotted line, we
understood that our connection to our spirit would often be clouded by
overwhelming feelings of grief, anger, fear and shame – the human journey wouldn’t
always be easy, but we signed the agreement knowing that it would be worth it.
I recently completed a
yoga teacher training and learned some basic yogic philosophies and that have
helped shape my understanding of our human experience. “According to the Kosha system in Yogic
philosophy, the nature of being human encompasses physical and psychological
aspects that function as one holistic system.” (wikipedia) And this system has five
layers also known as sheaths. The outer
most layer is our physical or food body, the second layer is our energy or
breath body, next we have our lower mind, which deals with our interpreting our
senses, and then we have our higher mind, which is where wisdom and reasoning
exist, and the fifth inner most layer is the bliss body, where we experience
joy. Now, here’s where things get
interesting. None of those layers are
the true you! Your true divine self resides
inside all these 5 layers – like
those Russian nesting dolls. And, our challenge
as human beings is that those 5 layers get cloudy, dirty and smeared, scratched
by our experiences, and the divine light that’s inside, doesn’t shine through
as clearly. However, with regular and consistent
effort, we can polish and clean the layers (like when we work through
challenging times, or perhaps enroll in a personal empowerment training), and the
hard work has a payoff. As we begin to
uncover, connect with and share our divine light, our lives develop a deeper
sense of meaning, of peace, and of interconnectedness. Because as we allow our own light to shine,
we become much more aware of the divine light that exists in all others.
Although, we often forget our own
true nature, the times when we remember our greatness and ‘awaken’ our spirits
– that connection would be undeniable. So, why do we forget? Why do we need these challenges? I like how
one of my favourite artist's Jason Mraz puts it “it wouldn’t be so bright, if
there wasn’t a shadow once in a while.”
So, that being said, if like me you’ve
been feeling a little extra wonky these last few weeks, I have some really good
news for you. The planet Mercury is no
longer in retrograde! What is retrograde
you may ask? (Before I go on, I must say
that I don’t know much about astrology and I’ve never really been into
horoscopes, etc, but I find that when I encounter something I don’t really
believe, I like to consider “what if?”) So, I invite you to join me for this
ride J As a result of the planetary
alignment, Mercury (which is the planet of communication) appears to be moving
backwards for about three weeks at a time, three times a year – most recent
retrograde happened from June 26th – July 20th. Mercury rules clear thinking, truth and
travel – so if you have experienced travel delays, petty arguments,
miscommunications or the sense that your life is moving backwards in the last
three weeks – you are not alone! It
seems that everyone I talk to is feeling unsettled, uneasy, unhappy or
unfulfilled in some way! I’ve certainly experienced my share of
miscommunications, frustrations and really began to question where my life is
headed these days. Am I where I should
be? Is my life is passing me by? I
talked to my dad a few days ago and shared how I was feeling, and for many
years now he has encouraged me to apply the 24 or 48 hour rule (The Rowsome
side of our family is known to be a bit impulsive in our decision making) and see
if I felt the same in a couples days. Now that the dust has begun to settle from my series of reactions
for the last few weeks, I’m beginning to re-examine what is being presented to
me. As challenging as it can feel to
have misunderstandings, delays, or the past resurface, with it comes great
opportunity. It’s a perfect time to go
inwards and to reflect on what we are being shown by the universe. A Course In Miracles says “there are many
answers you have already received, but have not yet heard” T-p.164. The great thing about the Universe is that it
doesn’t give up – remember… we made an agreement J.
It keep showing us over and over again the answers we need – and when we
don’t pay attention, the lesson usually gets bigger and bolder until we can’t
ignore it anymore!
The biggest
challenge I’ve been facing, and I’ve struggled with this for much of my life,
is the feeling like I’m living my life for everyone else. I get busy trying to assist others or please
them, and I lose sight of myself and my passions. I’ve done a lot of things in my life because I
thought I had to and usually felt
resentful, bitter and unappreciated as a result. There’s a part of me that really just wants
someone else to be to blame for my unhappiness.
“If I wasn’t so busy helping you do this, then I would be happy” “If
only you would do this, then things would be better” “If I were acknowledge for
my hard work, I would be happy.” Any of
this sound familiar?
Well, there is nothing quite like
having to give an inspirational talk to
take you out of your own shit! As I was
looking through my usual sources to find some inspiration for my talk today, I
turned to July 21 in my Robin Sharma book of daily inspirations and came across
this:
“We can reduce the suffering in our
lives by assuming absolute personal responsibility for ourselves and making
wise choices during the hours of our days.
In this way, we do shape our destiny and have the power to live much
happier lives.”
Well, there we have it.
If I’m unhappy and feeling helpless – there’s a good chance I’m not
taking responsibility for myself. Today,
when I was driving I thought to myself - “I miss yoga”. Now if yoga was a friend, I could easily
blame yoga for never calling, or always being busy, however… it’s yoga. It’s always there. And if I’m missing yoga – I need to do
something about it and I’m the only one who can make that connection
again! In order to follow my heart and
create what I want for my life – I must take responsibility.
I’m reminded of a quote by Napoleon Hill: “Whatever
the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve.” If I’m not achieving
what I want in my life, I must not be conceiving or believing – and I’m
certainly not responsible for creating any of these. For me, what we conceive of for ourselves – comes
from our heart – inside the five sheaths. It has all the answers, but we have dirt,
smudges, scratches etc on the layers that cover our true selves! Which is what the challenging times are
actually revealing to us – we have lost that connection to our divine
spirit. And, like the song “Against the Grain” by City and Colour, there is nothing else that needs to be done in our
lives except to follow our hearts. When
times get tough, when you feel misunderstood, when the road is a dead end – you
need not do anything else except follow your heart.
Now, as
simple as it sounds to just say “follow your heart” it certainly doesn’t mean
it’s easy. Our egos like to run
interference here! The ego exists in our
higher mind and disguises itself as wisdom and truth. It can create all sorts of crazy
thoughts! In order to work through this
layer, I need to set some time aside to be quiet time and even that can be
really challenging to do! However, the
longer I go without feeling that connection to my heart, my spirit feels
unfulfilled and restless – and then the finger likes to come out! It’s a sure sign that I need to take some
time for me.
In the last
year, yoga has been something I’ve been able to give myself on a consistent
basis, and it has built on the trainings that I have completed with Breath Integration. What I love the most about
yoga, is that what happens on my mat is a reflection of how I live my
life. There are days when I look in the
mirror in class and feel judgmental, competitive, not good enough, defeated or
broken – physically or mentally. I feel
frustrated and stuck and it can cause a lot of needless suffering. In his book “Meditations from the Mat” Rolf Gates, a long time yoga practitioner and teacher, talks about how physical or
emotional problems give us an “opportunity to pay closer attention to what we
do, and to put our faith in our ability to heal.” So, not only do we need to
take responsibility for our happiness, by paying attention to our actions, but
it’s also crucial that we have faith in our ability to overcome obstacles along
the way. (This is the ‘believe’ portion
of Conceive + Believe = Achieve
formula) A Course in Miracles says: “Everything
is for your own best interests” W-p.38. and
it also says “Every loving thought is true.
Everything else is an appeal for healing and help, regardless of the
form it takes” T-p.215. It’s important
to have faith in a loving universe, and know that our healing (whether it be
physical, emotional or otherwise) is a pathway to more love. Believing in the outcome plays a significant
role in creating the results. Henry Ford
and Confucius have both been quoted as saying: “Whether you think you can, or
think you can’t – you are right.” So, while
there are days on my mat when defeated, I remind myself to keep believing in my
ability to heal, to grow strong and to persevere. The song “Hall of Fame” by The Script reminds
me I can be anything I want to be – work hard and dedicate yourself – why not
create your own hall of fame for all of your own accomplishments?
Yoga has felt very challenging for me
at times, and I’m thankful for these challenges and what I receive from them,
because – more and more often there are days on the mat when I can look at
myself in the mirror and feel incredibly grateful, loving and present. Breathwork and Yoga have both taught me lots
about living in the NOW. A Course in
Miracles says “…now is the closest
approximation of eternity that this world offers. It is in the reality of “now” without past or
future that the beginning of the appreciation of eternity lies” T-p.247 and
isn’t that where we find our ultimate happiness?
Learning to be in the moment, stand in our personal power and
take responsibility for our lives. The
challenges we face are all opportunities to create more healing and allow us to
connect with the light that exists inside each and everyone of us Again, a Course In Miracles says: “Every
loving thought is true. Everything else
is an appeal for healing and help, regardless of the form it takes”
T-p.215. Whether it be a
miscommunication, a delay, or a hard yoga pose – you don’t have to let it steal
your peace. (My yoga teacher training
Kristin Campbell taught me that one!)
So I encourage you to follow your
heart, take response ability for your actions and believe in yourself and the
love of the universe. We are all capable
of far more than we give ourselves credit for and I believe that whatever you
want – you can create.